Day 11

Colin seems in much better spirits today, but he is also very tired. He asked me to just hold his hand. We have a fairly long and lovely time with me leaning my head on his arm while we held hands. I miss that. More than I would have ever thought possible. He was drifting … [Read more…]

Day 10

It is day 10, and I find that I am starting to run out of steam. I am sleeping mostly OK, but my mind doesn’t stop for a second. Everyone is being so helpful and loving, sending limited communication – enough to let me know how loved we are, but not too much that it … [Read more…]

Day 9 – part 2

Today, Colin is still on the ventilator, but it is not on. It will kick in if he stops breathing, but they are weaning him off and he will be able to breathe without it very soon, I am sure. My Dad came today, and was able to correct me – he is at about … [Read more…]

Day 9

Today I am grateful for sleeping, my bath, and wonderful, wonderful warm water. I am starting to feel how tired I am, but have been so uplifted by so many people. Yesterday morning I went to see my friends at the scrapping shop, and that was such an uplifting thing. I need to remember to … [Read more…]

Day 8 – part 2

I forgot the most important part. Today I am beyond grateful for my friends – near and far, recent, and those I have not spoken to for a while. In particular in the scrapping / card making / mixed media group. I went there today and they just held up my arms – not literally, … [Read more…]

Day 8

We have mixed news today. He is back on the ventilator, but on the other hand, his bed is at a slight angle, and he was not able to tolerate that before. It means he is in much less pain, and his muscles are able to support him better, even with the loss of feeling … [Read more…]

Day 7

Today I am grateful for how stubborn my hubby is. The Doctor said he would not breathe again on his own because of the trauma of the crash, and the added trauma of the operation to stabilise his neck, even though he was breathing mostly OK on day 0. BUT we had another win today. … [Read more…]

Day 6

Ok, so today I have lots of hope. It may have something to do with the fact that I just woke up form a 2 hour nap. But also, Colin’s tracheostomy went well, and he is awake and feeling better. Today I am grateful for the wonderful staff at the hospital – each and every … [Read more…]

Day 5

Today i am grateful for my Dad. He is just awesome. So far, since he has been on the ventilator, it has been frustrating for Colin to try tell me what he wants or when he needs medical assistance. I have been using the spelling thing – where I say the letter of the alphabet … [Read more…]